Dear Best Friend: Once upon a time I considered you my rock. But last year, when I fell in such a heavy state of depression that I tried to end my life on two separate occasions (granted you didn’t know that part) you decided to use my distance AGAINST me as a reason not to […]

So I decided to deviate from the shambles of my marriage to write about my so called friends so you can see just why I say they suck. My first friend we will call Star. Star I met in my hometown. She was convinced she wanted to move to where we both live now. I […]

A month ago… we purchase 2 cars together. Now… he has moved his direct deposit to a private account and says he isn’t sure how much longer he is going to be here. In some ways, I think moving out could be a good thing. He will see how hard it really is because if […]

I’m sitting here at the water park and realize I haven’t updated in a while. That is because nothing new and one thing new all happened at the same time. Husbands job moved him back home. Something I begged him for for years. He didn’t really tell me, he was just home one day. Told […]

I realize it has been a little over a month… and that is because so much has changed yet nothing has changed at all. First and foremost… my husband. So in my last blog I wrote about being bombarded at work with his random nonsense texts and him being home for a long period of […]

I felt like I was doing ok for the most part. Husband came home Saturday and this is the longest stretch he has stayed. Then, true to his (selfish) form, he bombards me at work. First thing he tells me is he thinks once I can accept it is over we can be friends and […]

How hard it feels to be so alone in this situation. I’m very alone. I feel like I have no one. And this isn’t a whoa is me pity party, it’s truly how I feel. My husband, well, you know. My “friends,” well, you know. Making new friends is damn near impossible because how am […]

Once upon a time thinking I can’t imagine what it would be like to know I’d never see the sun again, never smile again, never drive or walk into a building again. Now all I keep thinking is “my time is coming.” Since everything has happened I’m just so broken, so sad, and so scared. […]

…and not much has changed. The only changes have been he had a birthday, we had an anniversary, and I had a birthday. Nothing special happened with these days. I tried really hard to make his birthday as special as possible, all things considered. Kids and I sent him an e card with a gift […]

My husband came home last night. You know because he works out of town. Well, he actually got home before me because I worked late. As usual, he hasn’t said ONE word to me since he has been home. Not one fucking word. But he wants to be friends? Shit I don’t treat my enemies […]