I *HATE* my life…

I realize it has been a little over a month… and that is because so much has changed yet nothing has changed at all. First and foremost… my husband. So in my last blog I wrote about being bombarded at work with his random nonsense texts and him being home for a long period of […]

Guys, I can’t.

I felt like I was doing ok for the most part. Husband came home Saturday and this is the longest stretch he has stayed. Then, true to his (selfish) form, he bombards me at work. First thing he tells me is he thinks once I can accept it is over we can be friends and […]

I don’t think people understand…

How hard it feels to be so alone in this situation. I’m very alone. I feel like I have no one. And this isn’t a whoa is me pity party, it’s truly how I feel. My husband, well, you know. My “friends,” well, you know. Making new friends is damn near impossible because how am […]

I remember…

Once upon a time thinking I can’t imagine what it would be like to know I’d never see the sun again, never smile again, never drive or walk into a building again. Now all I keep thinking is “my time is coming.” Since everything has happened I’m just so broken, so sad, and so scared. […]

I Know It’s Been A While…

…and not much has changed. The only changes have been he had a birthday, we had an anniversary, and I had a birthday. Nothing special happened with these days. I tried really hard to make his birthday as special as possible, all things considered. Kids and I sent him an e card with a gift […]

Cherry Fucking Garcia!

My husband came home last night. You know because he works out of town. Well, he actually got home before me because I worked late. As usual, he hasn’t said ONE word to me since he has been home. Not one fucking word. But he wants to be friends? Shit I don’t treat my enemies […]