How hard it feels to be so alone in this situation. I’m very alone. I feel like I have no one. And this isn’t a whoa is me pity party, it’s truly how I feel. My husband, well, you know. My “friends,” well, you know. Making new friends is damn near impossible because how am I suppose to do that? I tried the Bumble BFF app and not only did I not make friends per se, because I’m so lonely, sad, and broken I go and start looking at the dating side of it. As my marriage coach reminds me though, that does no one any good. All I’m doing is potentially dragging another person into this mess when o want to save my marriage and therefore, potentially hurting someone else, which isn’t what I want to do.
When all of this first started, I remember God telling me things would start to shift when one of us gets baptized. My daughter gets baptized tomorrow. And it looks like my husband isn’t coming home for that which will break her. I mean I don’t know, I haven’t talked to him since last Sunday.
I really want to make friends. How does a 43 year old woman do this? How do I not feel so lonely?
My coach also told me the average affair lasts 18 months. We aren’t far from that. So will he be the average, below, or above?
Guys, I’m really hurting. I really feel all alone and I’m breaking. This isn’t getting better in my heart even if people see me looking better, it’s a facade. I don’t know what to do. I really need advice and guidance here and not the “put your foot down” in your marriage type of advice because that isn’t real life.
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